Today I was inspired by one of my favorite bloggers. She wrote a post being honest about herself and her situation and it gave me the courage to finally do the same.
I dont have a fancy project for you today or any pretty pictures. Sad face, I know. I am going to be honest and let you know that Ian and I have been dealing with a lot lately, and some days we feel like we need to take life 1 minute at a time, because we dont know how else to do it. We're going through some things that have turned our lives into a rollercoaster. Up one day, down the next and we can't control it. Our home is the one thing that distracts us; gives us something to focus on and we are more than thankful for that. We are so thankful for all we have, but that doesn't mean that we dont still go through tough times like everyone else.
When we post, we feel the need to make everything seem perfect and make things look easy (refer back to my last post on some Q&A about that!), but thats not always the case. This week, we've sodded our backyard a bit and thats about it. Ive chosen my own sanity over painting a table.
There are some days I feel like I dont have it together. I feel as though Im failing and am not sure how I can control it. Do you ever need a day when you just want to cry, eat some ice cream and watch PVR'd tv shows all day? I hope so. I hope some of you out there can tell me you feel the same.
I feel as though Ive learned more in this past year about myself, than in 5 before that. Ive tried to be less demanding of myself, and tell myself its ok if I can't post every day. My house isn't always clean (although I try), and thats ok. Today I drank a diet coke out of a coffee mug, ate a burnt hotdog on a buger bun and haven't touched a dirty dish. I have about 10 projects waiting for me to finish, and I haven't touched them. I probably will, but not today.
My house isn't perfect. The photos you see on the blog are the ones we've chosen to post, but let me give you a glimpse of my reality. My kitchen cupboards are not only unattractive but knobs fall off on a daily basis, and we've found band-aids and action figures in our dishwasher (not from us-lol!). Our family room carpet is old and stained, we've using a random piece of furniture my grandpa picked from the garbage for our tv stand and our kitchen light looks like a cross between gothic and country- with 3 lightbulbs burnt out. Its pretty hideous, and if you've been to our house and said its not that bad, we KNOW you are lying!
Of course we have so many visions and plans to change these things, but time and money are always a factor and we need to remind ourselves DAILY to be patient. We have so many friends with lovely finished and decorated homes, however doesn't everyone want to change at least SOMETHING about their home? Ive got a list of about 30 things. Probably more. In fact its more like 57 but who'se counting.
We do projects when we can, and I honestly can't thank my lucky stars enough to have a husband who loves to do them with me and is more than helpful. I couldn't do this without him, and I am very thankful for that.
I try to focus on the postives and happy moments on the blog, but today I need share my reality with you. We are not perfect, our house is not perfect and projects do not always turn out. Remember those painted jars I shared with you? Well 3 of them didn't turn out and I had to do them again. Any of you who have done a project on your home will attest to this...things are not as easy as they seem. And if you are on Pintesest don't forget that most of those projects probably took those people more than 1 try to finish....if not, Id love for them to come help us!
So there you have it. A bit of our reality.
So dont feel bad if a project doesn't turn out, you dont have time to paint a dresser (since your 5 year old just smeared peanut butter all over the carpet), or if there are action figures in your dishwasher too. Life will go on, projects will get done with time and sometimes you just need to take a day to watch Price is Right in your pyjamas for your own sanity.